Make the choice

Life is about choices. From the day we are born, we are given choices to make everyday. Some choices we make, could change our lives and others are just a part of the journey in getting us to where we are going.

God created each of us to have our own free will. But in the process, he has tasked us with seeking his will in our lives. I have learned to take each day, one day at time. It is very easy to get caught up in rushing through life. When I was in college, I was dying for graduation day, that I missed those little moments that made college so special. My sister is getting married in July and while we all are enjoying the days leading to her wedding, we catch ourselves saying that we can't wait until the day after. But if we are living for the day after, we are missing the moments that make the big event so special.

I talked about road blocks in a previous blog, well God puts up these barriers to test us but to also make us stop. Make us stop rushing and stop planning for tomorrow, when we could be loving him in the here and now. We could be seeking what he wants for us TODAY and not planning what he wants for us ten years from now.

The other day someone asked me if I have any regrets for my past decisions? As I sat there thinking about it, the answer was no. I don't regret giving second chances, I don't regret loving deeply and I certainly don't regret being the woman God created me to be. Another friend of mine said to me, you hold yourself together pretty well when you are falling a part. And she was right, when I want to break down and crawl back into bed, God has granted me the gift of being content in the storm. Sure, I break down but at the end of the day, I am filled with grace and mercy.

I believe in the ability to make the choice to change and I believe in the ability to make the choice to forgive. I still believe in the ability to fix our wrongs and be better than we were yesterday.  God grants heartache for you to have time to know where your heart is and where it is going. Another friend couldn't understand how excited I was to be alone. Like truly alone, no one but me, myself and I. He couldn't get it and I couldn't explain but I was so happy to spend an entire day alone in complete solitude. And again, this was a choice that I made, I wanted to "shut off and shut out" the noise. To find time for me and some peace with just me and God,

As I continue to walk through this journey in seeking Gods will, I know there will be people that don't agree with me. That question my choices but they are mine and they are what I feel God is calling me to. After years and years of aiming to please everyone else, I have selfishly decided to do what makes me happy (in reasonable means, that is). Its time that we all start living in the here and now. I am not saying that you shouldn't put others first and care for others, because God calls us to do that as well. To be selfless and exhibit grace to all of Gods children but I am saying that it is okay to make your heart happy because how can you share the love of Christ without loving yourself and being at your best.

This world is very flawed. No sin is greater than the next persons. We all are hurting in some way, our options are to cut ourselves out of the world, stay in the solidarity bubble or go out there and blossom. Love and forgive. Dream and live well. The line between what is right and what is wrong is often gray and we walk a delicate balance between the two. We walk carefully,taking advice from others and feeding our own heart and soul. We need to live lives that are less stressful and more God driven. Be at peace with what happened yesterday and decide what is best for you, according to Gods plan. Never cease to give mercy to those who hurt us, never stop showing love to those that need it and never think that you are being selfish for finding your happiness. Your'e a perfectly imperfect vessel that God has called to have a heart of forgiveness and grace and you should never be ashamed of  that.